Memories/Favourites/Other.

Some random (that's the most overly used word by twentysomethings) thoughts.

I was raised on Nickelodeon and Nick at Nite. My favorites from the after 6 PM programming were:
- I Love Lucy
- The Lucielle Ball Show
- The Lucy Desi Comedy Hour
- Newhart ("This is my brother Daryl and this is my other brother Daryl.")
- The Bob Newhart Show
- Taxi
- Mary Tyler Moore Show
- Get Smart
- The Munsters
- Bewitched
- I Dream of Jennie
- (and on a rare occasion) Dragnet
*Sometimes when I would wake up early on weekdays (we are talking 5-ish, I would enjoy Mr. Wizard)

In Love: with Goesl's Parade

I am currently in love with Goesl's Parade, a Christian band from Texarkana. I usually find it difficult to listen to "Christian" music simply because, in my mind at least, there is a stigma attached- this thought or idea that it isn't "as good" as the secular stuff. I guess I think this because it seems like an artist's religious affiliation could hinder their artistic freedom. I don't know... that is just kind of how I feel sometimes. But anyway, back to Goesl's Parade.

I'm not usually a fan of "Christian" rock/indie stuff but when I listened to some samples from their "debut full length effort" it was instant love. I ordered their CD from CDbaby and I have been listening to it like crazy.


I love this guy called Jesus. Sometimes (rarely) I like to listen to songs about how awesome He is but I usually don't dig the song style. That has changed now thanks to Goesl's Parade. Their stuff, for lack of a better word, really "mooooves" me. I can't really put it into words, but it like, moves me, like, a lot. That's the best I can do because the feelings are running pretty deep way down in the heart space.

The lyrics, the vocals, the sound as a whole- is tops.

Favorites:

Piano Song:
I've fallen to the bottom
With no where else to go
My knees they ache from crawling
Down this road alone
- - - -
And now I need a savior
To break this heart of stone
Oh, I'm useless in this state I'm in
And willing to let go.

Rescued:
Come Lord and rescue me
Hold me in your arms away from this world
Come Lord and rescue me
Wrap your arms around me to never let go
And I feel your hand lord
I feel your grace
And I feel your presence here in this place
Oh, hallelujah
Christ, my savior
I've been redeemed by the Lamb that was slain

Uhhh...Road Trip?? Hello?

I want to take a road trip up North this summer almost more than anything. The only problem is that I have absolutely no one to go with. I thought that E*beth and I would be able to take a mini road trip this summer around Texas but plans have fallen apart since she decided to take summer school at the last minute. I hope I don't sound like a horrible friend but I can't really think of anyone that I would want to spend a substantial amount of 'in-car' time with. It doesn't really matter anyway because everyone seems to be super busy this summer. All I want to do is jump in the car with my backpack and a very likeable, smiley-faced, easy going person and drive up to Vermont, Maine, and Massachusetts. I want to have myself a nice Maine lobster and then go hang out at the JFK presidential library.

Someone drive down this road with me! We'll smile/laugh/eat homemade pumpkin cookies!

Surely, there has to be someone who shares the same interests. If I don't know you yet then hurry the H up and get all up in my life and lets make this happen.

I am cooking up a storm lately- that's probably to make up for not having a real kitchen this year. Tomorrow I am making IKEA apple cake!

'This Old House' and other tales.

My house- Is a very, very, very fine house etc.
Now that summer is here and I am back on Northridge Dr., I want it to be everything that I dreamed it would be, but sadly it isn't- and all because of one petty, petty reason. This house is down right filthy disgusting! I mean, really really disgusting. Where my parents initiative to 'keep house' has gone, well, I really just can't say. First off, I just want to say to my mom, "I have asthma, YO! So stop smoking in the house!" The smell lingers in the carpet, drapes, pillows, etc. And just a little p.s. to mom or dad or whomever- CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELF. I mean seriously, I never thought that the roles would be so reversed. I never thought that I would be nagging my 50 and 60 something year old parents to clean this joint up but that is exactly what I am doing. Well, sorta. I don't really have the heart to tell them that they are lacking sanitation activity. Maybe they'll sense my desire for them to clean when they see me doing a lot of hard labour like cleaning out the fridge or scrubbing the floorts. Because, seriously, old orange juice stains, unrecognizable bits of food/goo and hair/dustballs bigger than Jasmine- not a good look- doesn't shout "walk on me barefoot!" or "eat what's inside of me!"...heh.

In other news- I have a new vice and I don't plan on letting it go anytime soon. I've always thought my life to be fairly uneventful and predictable. It will be interesting to see how things will play out now. Like most vices, it isn't very healthy, but some things are worth the sacrifice.

I'm surrounded by a lot of lovey dovey stuff. It's pretty gross. I'm about to remove the filter. I wonder how certain relationships last. Going on my observations, because that's all that I have to go on, there is always a giver and a taker (obvious, I know). There is always one party who gives too much and another who takes too much. How does it last? I have decided that I will more than likely be alone forever because A) no one will ever love me or B) I won't let them. Oh well. I'm very hardened to the idea of love because it isn't real- at least not for me. But I think I just might be ok with that. I can get along just fine on my own. If I don't expect things from people, namely boys, then I will never be disappointed. Fuck it. I'm turning my back first.


I need to figure out what to do for my birthday. 21.

Same.

I helped Kristin pack up her apartment yesterday- she graduates next week. I talked with Wendy about her graduating in December and Elizabeth applied to grad school the other day. Kim, Amy, and Cara are quickly on their way to graduating as well. Throw in a few serious relationships and you've got some full blown grown ups on your hands. I feel like such a baby in comparison and I get really angry at myself sometimes. I've been feeling really alone, lately, and really really stupid.... and that's it.